Social Networking

Now-a-days, everybody and their brother have a MySpace, Facebook, Twitter or some other type of social networking account. I personally have both a Facebook and MySpace, although I rarely use Myspace anymore. Too many creepers...

As I was going through, editing and updating my pages I came across my "About Me" section. I was stumped at what to put. I got to thinking, what can I really put here, to tell people WHO I am? Someone who's never met me. How can I tell people what my interests are, and what I stand for? I don't think anyone can ever fully express themselves in one of these boxes. It's not enough. Which goes to show you, I'd rather have a face to face conversation about getting to know you rather then IMing you... call me old fashioned. Sadly, to be in the here and now, it seems you have to be connected to the world wide web in one way or another.

This was my random thought today, and my attempt to blog more often. :)

I'm Suzzanna. I'm 18, and I'm still scared of what's ahead of me in life. But I'm ready to fully take on whatever God's going to throw my way, and hang on tight. I love my family, my friends, my music, and my Lord. Take it or leave it, I'm happy.

My Calling

I've always heard people talk about how they've found their calling in Christ, and how it's taken them to the many corners of the world. But I've just never really thought too much about it.

But as my summer has taken me to Luther Heights once again, and now Camp Palisades, I've found my calling. Camp. That's where I belong, because I get this profound feeling when I'm worshiping in the mountains, and when I can lead others with the word of God. Being a counselor at Palisades, has prepared me for what I want to do. I'm finally realizing things, although it's taken me forever, and I'm ready to take action. I'm ready to follow where God leads me, but I have a pretty good feeling the end result will have me at a cabin in the mountains...

Times are changing...

We had our new teacher in english today. I can honestly say... I hate it. It's not that I hate the teacher. He's actually one of my best friends' dad. He's a cool guy. But... the room has been stripped down to absolute bare, white walls. All of his stuff is gone. It's extremely wierd. It's not even Hamilton's classroom anymore. It'll never be the same... As soon as I walked in and sat down, I wanted to cry. And in fact, I did. I don't know if it's just me, but I'm having a really hard time adjusting to all of this. I just want my teacher back.

I don't know how to take this. Do I take it as a sign? Is it preparing me for the future, full of change? If that's the case, then time, the world, everything must be working against me, because I'm not ready for the change. I don't like it one bit.

Oh me, oh my...

There has been a lot of drama lately. I'm sure most of you know about our teacher fiasco. Naturally, I have mixed feelings about the whole deal. I decided that I wasn't taking sides, because neither person was right. But as I think more and more about it, I've begun to take a side. No matter how hard I think about it, that's just what I think is right. I've shed so many tears over the past week, I'm sure I could've watered the Garden of Eden. Life throws us so many curveballs, that we just have to practice hitting them out of the park.

Who knew my senior year would be so emotional? It's just been a roller coaster. Up and down, and all around. Loop de loop and "Holy crap, I think I might throw up." Basketball season is coming to a close, and I don't think I've ever been more ready for something to be done with. I feel like my life is in fast forward. Or maybe it's just that I have too much on my plate. Do I? I try to keep busy, but it seems like I'm too busy at times. Maybe it's just that I'm a senior. And I feel like that if I sit on my butt, I'll be missing out on something. One way or the other, I need some serious organization tips.

College is also at the top of my list. Deciding where to go, will by far be the hardest decision I'll have to make. I'm so afraid, that once again, if I go too far away from home, I'll miss out on everything. But then again, I don't want to be too close, because I'm in need of a little scenic change. What can I do, but look at what's best for me, and what school will be FINANCIALLY best for me?

I'll end with this. I've decided that I need to blog more. It's a much better solution then punching someone in the face.

With love,
Suzza

Song Copyrights. Oh yes.

So I needed somewhere to put my copyrights for my songs. Here they are. Don't steal them. You'll go to jail.








There's the proof. Fight the urge. Don't be a pirate.

Just one of those days...

We've all had them. Those days, where we just feel like curling up in a ball, and sleeping for the rest of the week, or until the madness is over, which for me, might never end. Life seems to be throwing quite a few of those days at me lately. It must be the massive amounts of stress I'm under, with high school, extra cirriculars, and getting ready for college. Not to mention the million other things I'm involved in. But I did make a priority list, and am currently working on crossing items off of it. I just keep forgetting that no matter how much I want to give up, God won't let me. Because only He knows what's best for me, and if I was meant to be a failure in life, I'm sure I would've accomplished that already. But I'm taking things as a sign that I'm meant to do great things and I'm going to take that sign and run with it.

Snow, snow go away...

I'm SO not ready for snow. It doesn't seem like it's time already. Snow means, that winter is here. Snow means that the end of the year is coming. Which in turn means, my last year in school is winding to an end. Which I'm totally not ready for. I seem to be un-ready for almost everything lately. School, life, everything. Did I mention everything?! How do you be ready? For snow, for school, for the rest of the life ahead of you? It all comes so fast, and so unexpectedly. If only the snow could go away... Would it mean everything else would go away too?

Oh what to do while pondering in the Meadow...

This might be a complicated post. Camp, is the most amazing place I could ever hope to be. It's... a home away from home. I was up there as a camphand last week, which was so much fun! I mean, who doesn't love washing dishes and cleaning bathrooms for 70 people?! It was just a bit different then what I expected. I mean, I had so much free time, I didn't know what to do with myself. When not making friendship bracelets, I sat by myself looking out at the meadow. Which is beautiful by the way.

See what I mean? The best place to think and pray. About anything. About, how I wasn't quite fittig in like I wanted to be. About why it was happenig. About what I could do to fix it. Pray, for strength for the rest of the week. To get through dishes. And to help me get in with the rest of the group. That was the thing about the week. It just didn't feel quite right. Have you ever felt that way? Where you just don't quite fit in? I don't like the feelig, and it frankly didn't make any sense to me why I was experiencing it. On any given day, I could say to you, "I'd be willing to live and breathe Luther Heighs for the summer." I went to camp, thinking exactly that. Where it went wrong, is beyond me. Don't get me wrong, by the end of the week, I was fitting in to a point. But still not to the extent that I'm used to. It might have just been the fact that I was a new camphand. I just wasn't up to par on my "fitting in skills". Wierd. But despite that, I'm determined to continue my work up there. I love it too much to let a little thing like not quite fitting in get to me. My love for Luther Heights, and the staff is only something that God himself could put into my heart...

Where has the time gone?

Time flies when you're having fun. At least it has for me. Crazy jam packed summer! I've been so busy, but I love it! I'll have to do some catch up blogging shortly. :)

Ugh...

So my life is still pretty much crazy! Basketball and school take up all of my time so it's pretty much like I don't have a life outside of those. Basketball just takes up so much time. But we did win our game last night against Malad and we play Aberdeen tonight so we'd better sluaghter them is all I can say. And I found out that I have JV practice at the freakin crack of dawn tomorrow which is excatly what I need. Freakin Lenz. I always feel like there's something else I should be doing, like there's something really important I'm forgetting. Has anybody ever felt like that? I don't like it. I signed up for Junior Miss, which is just another thing to add to my "to do" list. O boy. I'm actually excited to do it, but it'll just take up more time. Also the talent show is in a few weeks. I'm not sure if I'm doing that yet or not. We'll have to see if I'm still alive at that time.